Friday Guilt and Other Tales

Perhaps it was not eating enough calories for the past few days.  Perhaps it is the hormones that are bouncing around due to the unexplained endometriosis issues.  Or perhaps it was a sheer lack of willpower.  Whatever it was, Thursday was definitely NOT a day where I did not make my calorie quota.  And this on a day that turned out to be a rest day, instead of a swim day.

I started Thursday with a bowl of weight control oatmeal, about 8 oz. of nonfat activia, and V-8.  I had lunch with Mr. Darcy at Chipotle.  Trying to be good, I had a salad with black beans, chicken, and salsa.  And then I had them put cheese on it.  I doubt it was fat free cheese.  No dressing though.  I cheated and had a diet coke.  I haven't had a diet coke since December.  Yum.  We chatted and had a nice lunch and then I headed back to work.  The wierd bit?  I was hungry again by the time I hit the neighborhood.  And I knew what I wanted.  Somehow the car ended up outside of Davis Bakery.  But it wasn't there for a nice wholesome sandwich.  Nope.  A Missisippi Mud Pie Brownie - a less sugary brownie on the bottom topped with marshmallow.  On top of the marshmallow? Fragments of oreos and walnuts. Sigh.  It called me by name and I ate every bite.  Dinner consisted of chicken and veggies, so that wasn't so bad.  But dear lord.  Talk about "what can I do to lose weight" in the blog and then it's stuffing your face with a Mississippi Mud Pie Brownie?  I even got Mr. Darcy into the act and bought him a Coconut Lime Cookie, which is one of his bakery favorites.  I even gave it to him after the girls were in bed so he didn't have to share.  Misery loves company, I guess.  But never before did misery taste so good.  I can guarantee you that. Sigh.  At least we had chicken and veggies for dinner.  

I also ordered a book called Forever Fit by Richard Katouff, MD.  I had checked him out after Parismtnriding left a comment the other day.  And while I'm not in the market at the moment for payment for ongoing advice, I thought his book sounded good and it had glowing reviews from his clients.  Supposedly, it puts all the nutrition and workout stuff into an easy to read, understand and apply sort of system.  Yet another thing that I will have to review for you all.  And today after seeing RockStarTri's comment and the post at My Life as a TriMommy,  I bought Racing Weight by Matt Fitzgerald also.  I appreciated all of the comments from yesterday's post!  I sometimes use Dailyplate.com to track my calories - I used to be great about it, and know I need to do better.  I have a feeling I'm "undereating" again, which is probably why I've been so tired (not to mention the running around like a crazy thing).  It's not like I don't eat, it's just evidently by eating what I do, I just don't eat enough of it even though I feel full and end up eating around 1100 calories instead of the 1500 - 2000 I should eat during training (per Daily Plate and all those formulas out there).  Coach tells me that's why I don't lose weight - my body thinks I'm starving and then when I do eat the right amount it saves it for me so when I'm "starving" again I'll have it.  It's complete counterintuitive, but at the same time I sort of get it.  I sometimes think it funny that I once thought "wow with all the training I'll be doing, I'll be able to drop weight in no time."

But enough of that.  What's done is done, and now we just have to see what we can do in the days to come.  Now onto other tales.

This morning, I did not get out of bed at 5 am.  The alarm clock went off and I told Mr. Darcy to just reset it.  I couldn't move, I was so tired.  But, I at least had a plan - and Mr. Darcy and I talked it over before bed last night just in case and he's on board with it.  The plan? Do that swim today and run on Sunday morning. So, when the alarm went off at 6:15 am, I got up and put on my swimsuit and packed my gym bag.  Then it was off to help the little ladies get up and dressed.  Things went much better this morning than yesterday.  Ladybug was in a much better mood about getting up and getting dressed, even if she threw a little fit because I fixed one of her pant legs and we had to have a discussion about behavior.  Then I discovered that my watch was 7 minutes slow and I raced out of the house to get to the pool.  I felt like a big meanie because Ladybug was crying and didn't want me to go, butI had to be tough and just go anyway.

It was great to be back in the pool.  Monday I never really found my stroke, but today was awesome.  I could feel the rolling motion as I reached and pulled and the sound of the water in my ears was making that familiar song. I am slower than I was when training for the 70.3, but I don't think I'm as slow as I was this time last year and from what I can tell I can keep going for longer distances.  So I'm sure it will come back and get even better.  Today's workout was 1800m: a 200 warm up, a ladder of sorts - 50m, 75m, 100m, 150m, 200m followed by 5 x 50m fast and descending (51.0, 49.02, 48.36, 47.49, 46.49) and then 200m, 150m, 100m hard, 75m hard, 50m hard, and a 200 cool down.  Luckily for me, another swimmer hit the pool part way through my 50's. (There was no one in the pool when I got there except for a little kid who was about 12 that almost smacked into me when he decided to cross into my lane to get out of the pool as I was doing a flip turn - uh hello? wait until after I'm past you and then get into my lane.  I had to pull up out of that turn super fast and he was lucky I was paying attention!)   I say luckily because it made me want to race her.  She was a good swimmer and about my height.  When it came to the hard swims after the descending 50's, I used her as practice.  I'd let her get about 1/2 of the way down the pool and then swim and the goal was to beat her every time.  I'm happy to say that I did.... and pretty soundly on the 50 especially.  But I'm not competitive... not me. : )

I'm still pretty tight.  I didn't get a chance to do the yoga yesterday, but I did do my lower back and hamstring stretches this morning.  I am like a rubber band that's been left out in the sun.  Not especially stretchy.  Those Trigger Point leg rollers are getting more and more tempting.  It's funny really.  When I didn't know they existed I just put up with the tightness.  But now that I know they're there and that they can loosen me up for less pain and better performance on a very regular basis, it's like I can't get them out of my mind.

Anyway, I got home and had some Kashi Go Lean for breakfast.  I hadn't eaten before the swim, even though I know I'm supposed to but just didn't have the opportunity, and was hungry.  In fact, it's been almost an hour and I'm hungry again.  I'm thinking of a v-8, a cup of coffee, an orange and some fat free activia.   It's practically shouting my name.

Today I'm hoping will be relatively quiet on the work front (and home front).  I have nothing on the calendar... oh except for that endocrine bloodwork I just realized I was supposed to do this morning.  I'll have to move that to Monday and will have to try to show up when they open. OOPS.   I think I need to add a post-it note to the door to the garage...

I did remember to leave a voice mail for the babysitter about the Blue Note Ball, and to register for the Wildman Triathlon.  I'm holding off on buying tickets for the Blue Note Ball until I know that we definitely have a babysitter.  No sense in spending more money than required if we can't find anyone to watch the little Ladies!  Speaking of Money, I just remembered we need to buy birthday presents for the birthday parties the little ladies will be attending this weekend.  Perhaps I'll squeeze that in after work and before dinner today after I pick up Ladybug and Angelfish from daycare.  It's all about the timing, really.  You can squeeze things into moments when you least expect it!

Tomorrow is a Team in Training group workout - bike and a little bit of running - followed by a Bike clinic. Then I have to teach a recruitment segment at an Area Wide Training.  And then some time with the family (which may include our trips to the grocery and Costco).  I wouldn't mind a nap in there either, but I'm not holding my breath.

Have a great weekend and Happy Training!